Missing my momma

10-10-09 momma/daughter talk on my way to meet my hubby to be

     Today marks one week since my momma has been admitted to the hospital.  It has been very hard seeing her there.  Everyday I have been praying for her healing and strength for me and my family.  God has been there every step of the way for us.  How do I know Jesus is with my momma?  He has had His hand on her lungs, kidneys, and heart.  It's a slow healing process but everything has to take time.  Thank you Jesus!  How do I know He is with me?  When I visit my momma in the hospital I am able to handle seeing her not like her usual self instead of breaking down and crying.

     Sometimes it is tough for me.  The other day I wanted to call my momma and talk to her, but I couldn't.  I wanted to stop by her house so she could spend time with Christiana, but I couldn't.  I wanted to send her pictures on her phone of Christiana, but I couldn't.  I really miss my momma, she's still with us but just not like her regular self and I can't wait until she comes home.  :O(

 James 5:13-15

13 Is any among you afflicted? let him pray . Is any merry? let him sing psalms . 14 Is any sick among you? let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord:15 And the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up; and if he have committed sins, they shall be forgiven him.

     Today while I was visiting my momma Christiana was with her daddy and he sends me a text saying that she was unhappy.  I ended up cutting my visit short to go pacify my little one.  On the way home I call to see what was going on and he tells me basically that she is wants her mommy (he has me on speaker phone and I hear her in the background - I love hearing her little voice).  Anyhoo when I get home she damn near jumps out of his lap to get to me (I don't think that will ever get old).  Rickey tells me that she was SUPER grumpy and after our phone call she crawled into our bedroom to look for me and comes crawling back crying since I wasn't there. Awww that just broke my little heart.  She really missed her mommy.  I wasn't even gone that long but she wanted to be with me.  It's amazing to me how someone so young could miss a person so much.  I am enjoying every bit of motherhood.